Repentance

Purposeful experience of what God wants to do in and through you to take you to the next level....that level begins (sometimes) physically bending a knee  brings us up to where God wants you to be. 

I've pondered over a week now how it is that you come to a solid repentance. It's certainly ongoing but here I will write questions I have asked myself in this. It's how you begin a process. 

~What do I have to repent of?
~Am I seeing things in a different light?
~Are there hidden things that hinder my repentance in or against me?
~How can I help others see how to find this place I once found in depth?
~Is there not only one perfect and He left us as His example in his word?
~What in my life is unaligned of the word?
~Is not repentance an inward act and not judgment pronounced in working out salvation?

...Even inside your questions you will find answers that allow you to go further.

There may be more but this I know...I have prayed since I was a child old enough to talk; nearly 40 years and it begins with conversation; with God and others. This I know to be true. Right there is the release. The release of offense where the blessing may have been hidden behind the stronghold of the lie holding you back or holding back your blessing. If there is not a word spoken, who hears? The word says...without a word the people go astray. If we are full of God then it is meaningless not to come together in word and deed to love one another. This is not a word of judgment but one of search. Think of the means of conversation with God and or man. There is a beginning, a middle and end in each conversation. When someone comes to you; having been given some kind of speech; word; something for you...before they come to you you remained the same. Indeed, we all who are spiritual judge prophecy; by what the Word says and what the Spirit is telling you, but my thought here to share is, before the person spoke you remained where you were; either unchanged or defiled in your mind by a word unaligned. Much deceiving spirits roam about in these last days. We all spend too much time in concern in searching within ourselves, though contemplation is good.

You see, since a small child my heart has been big and full with a dream and I am as certain yours too; but one that begins so simply. It was first given to me. Absolutely attainable. Simple and easy. So what I am speaking to you about here is this...sometimes it may not always be the 'something' you have done wrong, but the lie we believe. You say, well, that may not be my fault. You are right in this but we have a will. And I will to not be a part of the enemies' plan. In fact, I am not. There have been places unattendable for me due to circumstance but God is far bigger than all that so that a way be made in and of it all. I want to say right now I not only believe deeply for even in tears for dreams that many of you hold in your heart that at quiet times you sometimes think God does not hear your heart. Oh, yes you are heard! ...sometimes without so much of a word. Your countenance speaks volumes. You are so very heard of things you so desire. Pray on when to speak to others. If you sense a prompting...do it, say it. Some things are not heard because we don't share; often because we doubt or mistrust that God is really speaking. Then we feel guilt and shame under it all if we have let the moment pass and didn't move with it. And after that struggle to find where we went wrong. Yes, I speak to you truthfully from trial and error. And it is these transparencies within each of us that gets the ball rolling so to speak : ) So, I am placid in this. Besides we all know edification is what makes the church what it is. Without airing love to others we often feel unaccomplished. It's the pressing in of love, whether in prayer or toward others.

I believe there is so much dreams that want to be given even in addition to what you already have and so I write and I also therefore speak! I write to you this because (and let's just agree on this to go further) our success, our money, our goods, our relationships are not always what we are really after at heart level. My next house and my next car is picked out completely for the most part in what I would like to have. We know what we want if we think on it and pray about it, but what is your most real desires? Glory. I sense prayer about to happen. I heard that God is a dreaming God. He dreamt and therefore gives dreams. He pours we receive. He was and is the most creative of all. After all we have been given the breath of God in our body.

Why do I write this? Well, a dear one agreed with me about birth...a birthing of prayer. That is that which sets motion for any necessary repentance. Think of how vast the creator God is? Now think of a woman giving birth. Giving birth. You give life in birth. You give the child life for you and your husband to raise up from birth. It was given to you in conception, carried and now birthed. A heart with the Spirit of God given you. You carry this with you and you cannot carry a child for always. It must be birthed. So we pray. Most often a woman does not give birth on her own. She has others around her to help; whomever that might be. The point is that it takes others conversation, hearing of the word of God spoken, interaction to form in our hearts and mind what and how to begin to repent; the desire to be in right standing with God. I was in heavy travail; and yes, a birthing at the alter heavily in prayer some years ago when another said, "Let me help you". That person sensed there was something so deep that I needed help. So we prayed together and came to the end of it. When you are praying deeply in the spirit experience has told me when you know you have your answer or that God is done giving to you what He wants to give you in that moment of time or time of prayer, you will come to a place of peace; a place of light hearted laughter even. You just know you have gone where God wanted you to go. We don't always know what we pray or interpret every word we pray but these are indications. You may even come to a place of being simply unable to say another word sensing a peace that you cannot explain. No less, I was prompted to write here though this may be of no new news to  you.

I want to ad here that I have had people say something to me in judgment and then feeling as though I had to go and find what it is I had to find repentance for. Let me stop right now and say this ever so boldly!...This was not of God and was plot and ploy of the enemy to derail your thoughts, you heart, your Spirit, your week and to take from you. The kind of repentance I have heard of late is of a chiding to gather together as a church and do the word of God.

It starts within. That is what 'seems' the chore and pain of repentance. Let me break this down for you so it doesn't look nearly as daunting a task to self. It's about giving our time. The more time we give to God in prayer and in seeking Him the more useful our time is and the greatest thing is this...we don't realize it because we are not controlled by it. That is the stress that tries to take away from it. You begin to enjoy moments in time you never thought possible. You've now successfully drawn closer to God and shed some need of repentance and best of all God did it and you didn't realize it was a task...because truly it wasn't. It's when we see we have sin but in the Spirit of God he is in command and so there is grace and light and laughter and pleasures forevermore. Chores are not chores after all. When fellowship with the Spirit of God takes place we find that ill-willed imaginations drop of the old religiosity of how mean a God we have been taught we serve. It is simply not so. Dreams can come true. To get with God in prayer skims the dross off our stresses and gets to the heart of what truly matters. Life begins.