"My Soul Longs For You" Misty Edwards

Posted @ 10:25pm

I Loved You Even If And I'll Love You When...

I loved you even if.....it's Sunday morning and I don't have sweet fellowship with you in person.... Even if my heart breaks to see your healing be..... Even if I had so many things to share with you....Even if you don't believe in the 'He' in me.... Even if the enemy has lied to you that you should fear me.... Even if you have looked at the outward appearance of man and not at the heart, I believed in you.... Even if you were in fear because I once was in the same place.... Even if you don't want to go the same places I do.... Even if I don't mean half as much to you as you do to me.... Even if you don't know what to do with spirit-filled emotion.... Even if you thought my only ministry is that which you read and truly only a small portion.... Even if you wouldn't converse with me.... Even when you call a thousand times and hang up and never leave a message..... Even when you cursed me from across the desk and I still went home and prayed.... Even if you may have taken me as a fool and secretly thinking me weak.... Even if you didn't realize God gives such open doors if we just walk through them.... Even if you believed you stole my dreams.... Even if you knew not how to receive your healing and wouldn't let me show you.... Even if you didn't pray selflessly.... Even if you spoke and I believed and you used it against me.... Even when you have threatened my whole family.... Even if riches was more important to you than first finding the abundance in God offered that includes riches.... Even if you haven't found that place of weakness that truly blesses.... Even if I haven't found that exact timing that breaks every yoke off of you because it is in the anointing that I so longed to share. Even if you took things from me that really wasn't what you were looking for at heart.... Even if you didn't know the great joy in my heart when I see you...Even if knowing what's for you aside from everything that is against you.... Even if I asked you to pray for me because I saw something in you and you didn't.... Even if I didn't have enough of what you needed at any given time...Even if you wouldn't let me explain.... Even if you shoved my hands away when I was praying for another because you didn't believe in God's healing power.... Even if  I really needed your help and you didn't come... Even if I wasn't the right size to suit you or for ministry.... Even if I couldn't get to you when you needed me the most... Even if I sinned against you unknowingly, I loved you.... Even if I was too organized or disorganized for you.... Even if I didn't give you what you wanted when you believed it was for you.... Even if you have disrespected me in many ways.... Even if you have taken part in trying to make me someone I am not... Even if you told lies about me to gain advantage.... Even if I tried to always think the best of  you... Even if you couldn't see the hours I spent in prayer for you.... Even if you simply closed the eyes of your heart off because it was easier.... Even if your flesh didn't want to be free of the disease that so badly wants you.... Even if you have sent me thousands of emails knowing I just wanted to see you face to face, not realizing who I really am....Even if you haven't responded to me.... Even if you wanted something from me but was too scared to just ask.... Even if you cared less than you said you did.... Even if I told you the truth and you thought it a lie.... Even if you don't trust God.... Even if you don't know God in your life.... Even if I have heard endless negative that will be turned around.... Even if you didn't choose me.... Even if you have used me to get your way I still want blessing rightly for you.... Even if you prayed against me often with a wrong spirit.... Even if you believe the worst is for you, I loved you and will continue to do so until you see the lie.... Even if you only wanted pride for me I still loved you.... Even when you hurt me and smiled about it...I still loved you.  Even if I wanted something less than you thought...Even if you thought you were less than and just didn't know....Even if you have done your best to kill me...Even if you don't want to see blessing come to me and my family...Even if you have a mentality that nothing is ever enough to satisfy, I will still love you until it leaves you  and you realize what God really wants for you....Even if I was considered wrong to make things right, I still loved you....   If you hold any of these, I loved you even if...


I will love you when I see you in person on Sunday mornings and we'll have sweet fellowship.....I will love you when my heart breaks in a good way in knowing that your heart is healed.... I will love you when you allow me to share many things with you....I will love you when you believe in the God in me...I will love you when you no longer fear me....I will love you when the outward appearance no longer matters to you but the heart of the Father....I will love you when you can share your same fears that once were but no longer are an issue....I will love you when you don't want to go the same places with me but we will enjoy it no matter....I will love you when I mean as much to you as you do to me...I will love you even when you may not know what to do with such spirit filled emotion...I will love you when my ministry has grown exceedingly far beyond writing this blog for several years.....I will love you when you converse with me.....I will love you when you call and chat because God has things to say to you.....I will love you when you have spoken so ill of me, but you won't walk on me any longer, though I'd pray if it were your need.... I will love you when you stop taking me for a fool.....I will love you when you realize there are open doors to walk through and I will hold your hand....I will love you when you be with me in my dreams and I in yours....I will love you when you will let me show you how to receive your healing....I will love you when you pray with aligned hearts...I will love you when we have agreement....I will love you when you accept me without presumption....I will love you when you see the abundance God offers through His riches..... I will love you when you find that place of weakness that truly blesses....I will love you when the moment is found that breaks every yoke because of the anointing I have so longed to share....I will love you when you find what you are looking for in your heart...I will love you when you see the great joy in my heart....I will love you when you have knowing of what's for you aside from everything that was against you....I will love you when you will truly pray for me because I know it is in you....I will love you when you know I am enough to meet your need... I will love you when you let me explain.....I will love you when you realize God's healing power....I will love you when you help meet my needs....I will love you when you realize I am suited for you and for ministry.....I will love you just when you need me the most....I will love you when you forgive any sin I may have committed toward you....I will love you when I am just right for you....I will love you when I can give you what you need when it is right on time and on target....I will love you when you respect me for who I am....I will love you when you love me for who God has made me and not mere perception....I will love you when you tell the truth about me....I will love you when I think the best of you....I will love you when you realize the hours I have spent in prayer for you....I will love you when the eyes of your heart see me.....I will love you when we rejoice together that you are free of the disease that no longer has you ....I will love you when you see that God in me wants more than an email.....I will love you when there is response....I will love you when you know who I really am....I will love you when you want something and you simply and confidently ask....I will love you when you care more for me than you ever have.... I will love you when you know I truly care for you....I will love you when you trust God....I will love you when you know God in your life....I will love you when all the negative is turned to positive.....I will love you when you choose me....I will love you when I can give to you what you need rightly to bless you....I will love you when you pray rightly for me...I will love you when you see the best was for you all along....I will love you when you want me to have a humble and contrite spirit about the things of God....I will love you when you love me on purpose and are happy about it....I will love you when you know what I want....I will love you when you know your worth in God....I will love you when you do your best to love me back....I will love you when you want the best for me and my family.....I will love you when you know for certain you have enough in God to satisfy, realizing what greatness God is giving you.....I will love you when all things are made right. I will love you when.....

It has been said many times...It is time for radical kind of love. This is the heart of God. Let us not give up meeting together. This is the foundation in which all else stems.

There is no condemnation, just love. Take on the one who makes it all possible. Love covers a multitude of sin.

1 Thessalonians 5:23 says this...Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul and body be preserved blameless at the coming of your Lord Jesus Christ.

God loves you even if.....and God loves you when.....

Posted 10:30pm

Faith Feet

For the entrance of the Word gives light....gives understanding to the path.

Hebrews 12:12-17 says...Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed. Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitter ness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled; lest there be any fornicator or profane person like Esau, who for one morsel of food sold his birthright. For you know that afterward, when he want to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no place for repentance, though he sought it diligently with tears.

Spiritual sickness that has rooted in offense and causes every sort of wrong.... This is a word of encouragement that you 'have been' sick. We all. Be of good cheer then because we know this is not of God and that healing belongs to all those who belong to Him. Reread the above verse and ask yourself a few questions and allow the Lord to speak to your spirit. You cannot say you do not know God. If you are alive and reading this, you know who He is. The Word says that everyone knows God.
~Can you pray?
~Can you believe?
~Can you trust?
~Can you forgive?
Amen! Your answers are Yes and Amen to the glory of God if you know the Word, because these are given to us all. There was and is anointed power in one drop of the blood that was shed that gave you all of these. Do you want it? It leads into every other blessing! You can pray with great power. You can believe for great things and for others. You can trust where there has been none and you can forgive greatly and open the flood gates of love in your heart and extend love to others.

Offense in the body of Christ wills sickness and disease; not for kingdom purpose. It's a fence for sure, but not for the purpose of blessing or even to guard the heart. It is for the purpose of being bait and taking it that no one be blessed, that the church not grow within your heart and even corporately. And thus every good gift cannot be given and miracles are slack in taking place in the church houses everywhere. 

Revelations says about the loveless church...Nevertheless, I have this against you, that you have left your first love. First love there is... 'dear, charity, affections, benevolence'. That cannot be accomplished without being and doing what it said it meant. 

When you remove the obstacles of offense, for whatever reasons you may have taken its bait and let go of bitterness that takes control of your heart, in the offense formed... You can pray, You can believe, You can trust and You can forgive. 

About Esau discussed above. It says 'like'. We are in the age of Grace. There is always repentance and there is always forgiveness. Resistance and rejection is from the pit of hell and furthers no good thing. Its commanded to return to where it came from! This is not a war against flesh, but against principalities and powers sent toward the church to cause trouble.

Once I was warned by a person and also told in prayer there was some sort of evil lurking and I did not heed the direction and be aware and as I was walking down the steps to the downstairs of this church I twisted my ankle and it hurt so badly I thought if I looked surely I snapped it in half. In a fit of pain, nearly vomiting and at this point my entire leg went numb, I as quickly as I could pull myself up,  taking no further thought of what pain I was in already, walked up two flights of steps and paced the church house for nearly two hours in spiritual prayer never sitting down once. When I left that day it was almost completely healed ...only a small portion of it unhealed over the next few days. God is in the miracle business. I held then and now a spiritual wisdom within my heart and mind that the miracles look like this...perseverance + prayer + forgiveness + love= Healing! ...of anything that ails your heart, soul, mind, strength or dreams! God is in the business of it all! Amen! 

I remember when I was little and was learning to ride a bike. My dad was running behind me and he let go after a few feet as I took off down the lane. I fell and skinned my knee (and many times after that; still scarred from some hard falls on my bike) and I was so mad that he let go. I didn't understand at the moment that it was gonna show how me to do it on my own. Now years later after him teaching me when I was 5 years old how to let go so I could ride freely on the road of life, he is now on oxygen. And I called him out for not telling me so that I might pray for his breathing. He told me he didn't want to worry me. The enemy will lie to you for any reason. Do you see where there can be no flow? Had I stayed angry I would have never learned. Had he not known that worry isn't of God, he would remain in the belief that he was alone in this. We are never too young or old to have a teachable spirit.     

The Spirit overtook me a few days ago in a quickened time of prayer and intercession. There was so much to be accomplished and I knew it...miraculously even! A place to get to in the Spirit for me and others and a place that I had to be and no means whatsoever to get there. I prayed until I came to that precious place knowing that everything was gonna be ok even if I couldn't make it. I even at one time contemplated how long it would take to walk 5 hours. There was certainly much to be accomplished. I had a choice to make in that. I was so very convicted at heart I could have jumped in the van and drove miles to give a profound word praying my way there knowing it would turn out well but I was blocked on every side and the van wouldn't even start. So, in the natural I wasn't going anywhere but I knew I had a message to give and also a trip to take and was prepared to, at a moments notice had a way been made somehow someway, to get it done. I have learned the art over several years stumbling, falling and getting back up again that when God says something move to do what he says in a moments notice; spontaneously....That it can be the difference between a person healing and not. God is gonna bless this irregardless of what your circumstances look like because that is right where He works the best. My point is that it was so strong on my spirit I could have gotten very angry at why this was not opening and became offended with even God, which is the greatest blockage ever to a river to flow.
         
Read here...Ezekiel 18: 27 says...Again, when a wicked man turns away from his righteousness which he committed, and does what is lawful and right, he preserves himself.  The disease goes no further. 

Matthew 6:15 says this...But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.       

I Peter 3:7b says this...and as being heirs together of the grace of life, that your prayers may not be hindered.       

Luke 17:4 says ..."And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day returns to you , saying "I repent", you shall forgive him."  This grace in forgiving isn't a license to sin or not to examine your own heart or even to take on offenses that were never for you to take on. The enemy is well aware that it ceases the flow of good things. 

2 Corinthians 2:4-8 says...For out of much affliction and anguish of heart I wrote to you, with many tears, not that you should be grieved, but that you might know the love which I have so abundantly for you. But if anyone has caused grief, he has not grieved me, but all of you to some extent- not to be too severe. This punishment which was inflicted by the majority is sufficient for such a man, so that, on the contrary, you ought rather to forgive and comfort him, lest perhaps such a one be swallowed up with too much sorrow.  

Colossians 3:13 says...bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another, even as Christ forgave you so you also must do.  

It's very clear...the flow of gifts are opened up when forgiveness is continual. Forgiveness is THE VERY MESSAGE OF THE CROSS. This leaves us without excuse. Often we keep going , shut our eyes, mouth and turn our heads. And that is not working for you or for me. It is a two way street with flow right down the center. Take a look at Revelations 22:2. Its says...In the middle of its street, and on either side of the river was the tree of life, which bore twelve fruits, each tree yielding its fruit every month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. Can we together shout a loud "Hallelujah"?! 

There will be the greatest flow of the river right in the middle blessing us all as we surrender to the love of God!
   

Word Before Worship

My heart, my mind, my spirit as well as the order of most churches begin our get-to-gethers with worship...and that is a beautiful thing!  God wants your worship, as much as you growing so in love with Him, yearns to worship. It seems only natural to put our heavenly Father first in what we know. It will always be a two-way street...a meeting in the middle. Its where things are accomplished in the Spirit as we come together corporately....blessed with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places (Ephesians 1:3) I am writing with the purpose of making our worship worthy in every way; perhaps bringing us all to a place we have never been. A loosening of the rough spots that we become more pliable at heart. Seems fit that it is time for a take down, a take down of things that don't allow us to worship more fully or as fully as we ought. A switched order in view that our worship is moving toward greatness in our hearts no matter what that looks like to us all.

You know, when you drive through a tunnel its only dark for the moment until you see the daylight just as you come out. This one may stir flesh a bit, but we are more blessed in the light at the end, that is really only the beginning of the day.

(Romans 8:6b) says...to be spiritually minded is life and peace...In the Spirit in unity! The Wade version of that same verse reads this way...We are to be taught according to our bent but let it be the mind influenced to our bent but let it be the mind influenced by God which is life and peace and not the mind given to early things which is death. 

For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So then death is working in us, but life in you. (2 Corinthians 4:11-12)...being always in full enjoyment of life.

(Galatians 3:21) Is the law then against the promises of God? Certainly not!  For if there had been a law given which could have given life, truly righteousness would have been by the law. Another verse says...Who hath bewitched you? 

(Hebrews 4:12) The Word of God is quick and powerful and sharper than any other two edged sword piercing even to dividing asunder of soul and spirit and of joints and marrow. The only place of division; aligns unto unity; lets the word do what it does.
    
When we worship we go high, we lift Him up and it is a blessed place indeed. Someone spoke of needing to find healing in an area of their life. We are worship to Him. We belong to God. We live out from Him. What we give away can only be of Him....or....So we set aside any doubts and pull down the things that don't allow us to worship fully. This one was seeking how-to-get free from a daunting spirit that was causing ail. It wasn't that this person couldn't be all they needed or wanted to be for and to God. You have to have the motivated spirit that wants to be free of the disease of what was standing behind the healing. There is always a lie and often more than one that stands behind, a hiding that causes the actual stronghold.

Ok, now let me explain this. Once many years ago I was amidst a powerful worship service and the Lord spoke almost as an audible voice and said that when you press into blessing the Lord with your worship and I was, its in the middle of it that you will not only perceive truth (refer to John 4:23-24) but also where the most intense battles come and also are won! We can look at the Valley of Blessing and see this truth in Chronicles. We know this to be true of the word and of this life lived from it. This one had to find that which was causing all of the ruckus so-to-speak holding back truth from the reality that allows the Spirit of God to flow and flood. As I stated above, and more often than in this instance, are we given a word of knowledge, a word of wisdom or a word of prophecy during the heights of worship. If even in the instant we don't align this to the word, the enemy either thieves or brings falsehood. What does this have to do with a person's healing? Everything. We are created to worship. When we do not take down the high places; wrong things set themselves us against the knowledge of God. When our thoughts are not His thoughts. We must renew the mind to the word of God. There is a pressing in that really doesn't give Him glory if we don't let go. It can become self motivated,without right motive and not be edifying. It can make a science of the word rather than simply agreeing with and believing it that in all manners of speaking God is glorified. So, in going after that healing know that keeping still doesn't get it. Speak, ask, knock. I most often walk into a service very prepared to praise and fellowship with God and dear ones but when you can't praise your way through one more ounce of pain you go after the victory first, that you might give away rightly. I know this seems long in explanation but the removal of dirt makes room for foundation. Lest the Lord do the building, the labor laboreth in vain the word says in another place. In other ways, no god ever saved themselves. But God! Selfish ambition never got that which you seek and control was never your friend, no matter how lovely or quick witted they might have been. 

To demonstrate further...When you are so high up that you won't have, or don't go after or ever seek counsel...wisdom has left your mind. The bible says in proverbs there is safety in a multitude of counselors. There is an ascertained and purposed reason why God said never give up meeting together. We learn from the Spirit in the midst of the corporate gatherings of believers. Healings and mistakes are only corrected by the grace and mercy of God and sometimes this comes in a just a sweet smile to a friend, neighbor or colleage but serves to break the ice that cause the neck to stiffen to a point of often heart break and hindrance. When you won't seek the healing you are setting yourself up for sickness and self exaltation that isn't in God's plan for you and doesn't get the prize until let go of. The enemy wants to place an apprearance of spiritual things that looks to serve the plan of God but with deception of false humility. The ploy; to steal enjoyment in the real things of God and to cause an end to that which was godly and golden to you. This makes room for covetness, idols of the heart and will do anything to try to steal your joy though never being fulfilled itself.

Now we know. It's time to bring the gold into the house of God. We will do this in a few ways. One; we will know our enemy and in that He cannot steal your joy when you stand in your righteous authority (though you can be so super sweet toward them, eventually it melts the heart of the one carrying the baggage unneeded that they give and worship right along with you). God is about life. If you are given a deadline, see it for what it is...a dead line. We are to be an extention of His life. And if you are being fed or filled of something that does not fill you or edify you rightly- you need a lifeline. 

God is not about lack. God is not about fear. God is not a God of punishment. The law was made only for the transgressors. We all have needed discipline. Without it we would not have been trained up in the way of the Word. Without it we have nothing. It should always humble us in some way, in that it shows us how to love greater than before. A classic example of this is wanting another to walk in the places you have been or watching another gain revelation of the same things you have hold of and same places you are going and be greatly excited for them. That excites me!

For children raised, reared and delivered into the knowledge of the Lord, there will come a time when the truth shines upon the heart and vision is clear how promises are fulfilled, not provoking children that they become discouraged or depressed. 

  

Proverbs 6:16-19 The Message

 ^16-19 Here are six things God hates,
    and one more that he loathes with a passion:
      eyes that are arrogant,
      a tongue that lies,
      hands that murder the innocent,
      a heart that hatches evil plots,
      feet that race down a wicked track,
      a mouth that lies under oath,
      a troublemaker in the family.

Your blessing is not the sacrifice of another! This comes from the motive of your heart. Abraham was accounted righteous. This is to all who receive this promise. 

There are spirits that are rooted in strongholds untold in ones held captive by them. In 2 Chroncles we read how he consulted spirits, mediums, fortune tellers and sorcers and encouraged these though this may have been hidden at times, making God angry none the less. Going after these for so long without repentance can cause one to be given over to a debased mind where all you come in contact with is affected. The above verse shows that the high and lofty places were not taken down in the heart. Again, I am not speaking of being high and full of Spirit. That is a blessing that takes place as sin and wrong doing ceases. When the generational things that plagued your past aren't taken down that true worship can take place that there be nothing that blocks the flow unto true worship happening in the house.

Come on Church! Let's get back to love be lifted high less every other lofty thing. Is there something that you are struggling to not carry? We all have to look at this daily...burdens even. 

Lie #1- Says you are too far gone for repair. 

Truth #1- You are already healed. You simply have to believe it, see it, know it and walk in it.

Lie #2- Can't believe the blessing is really for yours.

Truth #2- If you ask anything in His name its yours.

Lie #3- God does miracles but may not do it for you, your household or church house.

Truth #3- God is no respecter of persons and loves all the same.

He wants you to seek Him as a pure resources. He wants to be your  only source! 

God says stir up the gifts...not sorcery, rebellion, offenses, pain. These are not gifts of God. They have no victory over children of God. God is life and that's that. 

Empty the old wallpaper of the mind. Strip the walls of old and put on a fresh coat of paint. Loose the strongholds. 

(Ephesians 5:29-30) For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as the Lord does the church for we are members of His body, of His flesh and of His bones.     

Usury is not of God. It's best to ere on the side of caution in causing condemnation or humiliation to another. It's not God's nature. All the wealth; prosperity of the wicked is laid up for the righteous in every form and fashion.

On the high temple mount much was promised if...

1-The enemy will use every excuse or false promise not to truly bless. He can't. He hasn't God's ability.

2-"If" is a doubt word no matter.

3-Blessings will be given in God because...this verse makes me laugh...God owns it all anyway. It's not the devils to give, however it is righteous to call forth what is rightfully ours.  The realization is that if enough belief comes together together much treasury shall be brought back into the house of God. 

This I know. There is coming a day when the people of God are gonna find themselves struck dumb of the flesh because the Spirit of God that overtakes all that is not! There is a indeed a place in God the devil dare not go. Yes, you and me have unfathomable blessings that belong to us! Take down all that is not of the Word and let's Worship God, bringing the Gold into the house of God and to the people of God.  My God is worthy to be praised and magnified!  

Look Inside

8/11/2011 11:59pm

Deep within the recesses of your inner man lay the grandest dreams, mountains of love, and an authority so huge-yet hidden in or behind one molecule of God's love. God's love for His creation- The "He" in "Him" He gave to you! It's like the one drop of blood that hit the top of your head as it dripped off the cross as the finished work became all of you...all that He made of you...yes, you went through even His grief. In this all things was given to you. You and I had to reckon with the truth that was held back all for you. When this wisdom written in the word of God; the word made flesh...as it is taken in; breathed in and your mind renewed with the spirit of knowledge and wisdom that work together in the Spirit, you realize in the depths of your inner self that you are becoming full suddenly. Knowing something powerful is taking place. It's there that no quest or question, test or testimony is too silly to share. Romans 8:14-15...led of the Spirit. That latter rain falls upon you in whatever season and you find yourself yearning deeply, groaning in prayer at times for more and more of God. In this place you have found renewal taking place, anointing increasing, creativity blooming and authority in and of the knowing your Lord that makes the sky brighter, old habits less consuming, love growing big in your heart until there are times you may feel as though you'll jump out of yourself because God is all over you. The "He" in you now never diminishes the love you have for others but grows only from that place. It then holds a knowing deep within that nothing can take away what you have. Nothing can serve to separate you from the love of God. You cannot help but want to give it away. His words jump off the page, there's a song in your heart to sing that you can sense, a powerful exhortation of the Spirit, a shout of victory...often so loud that it breaks the power of hell! It's ok. go ahead and let yourself be just what you are longing to be. It's found in worshiping Him.What may happen might just allow you to realize the healing in the moment wrought for you so very long ago. That is what miracles are made of. The good surprises! With each step closer you realized strengths of His love in your heart and just what it means to you. And you know that the gates of hell will not prevail against the church. It's all right there...grandest dreams full on with love to give. Be blessed as you look inside...look inside your heart. Your Heavenly Father loves you and so do I!